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I'm done thinking about everything
Im starting fresh 
Forgeting about everything
And 
Im changing me for the best.

No more boy clothes 
No more thoughts about my past 
And 
No more regrets.

Its time to let it go!

Today is a brand new day!
Going back to the old me :) 

Staying positive
Thinking positive 
And going to be happy 

I deserve this!!

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A hot night 👎 June 5th2o21

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  This picture was actually tooken on the 20th of June , Terry didn't work so we walked to 7/11 got slushies and me a water .  Alisha picked out her sandles , I know they are to big but thoes are the only ones SHE liked and didn't want any others !  The reason why I'm uploading it to this blog post is because I was looking at it and I felt like it needed a picture . And also , I didn't make a post about that day . .  👎 Ugh it's a hot one tonight . Could you call this a rant or thoughts before bed ? Humm ... Oh I know . "just a typical might in my well lived in home" lmao  .. Got the AC on in the kitchen with a fan blowing into the living room .  Have another fan in the living room circulating the air and another fan blowing into the front room because my bedroom is their . And I also have two fans in my room .  I'm actually surprised that my hydro ain't high this month .  And I'm surprised that the breakers didn't blow yet .  But shhh don...
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An update on my life

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.  Alrighty ,  I had a crazy 3 months [July.August&September] And its still going on 🍀 In July ,  it's kinda hard to explain I was normal till 10.30ish possibly 11am  Me and my kids walked to the mall but after I walked into the dollar store I started sweating, going numb, felt really hot to the point where I would pass out . so we rushed out of there went up to the food court .  Once we got to the food court I called my sister and she helped me that day :)  The next day , same thing happend but it was to the point where I couldn't really walk (sister had to help me) , I passed out for a couple mins , my body was shaking and my throat was REALLY dry .  My sister takes me to the hospital I get hooked up to a heart blood pressure machine (if spelt right) and an IV . they took blood work from me and apparently I just needed to eat & drink more ?  Kinda hard to do that when I couldn't keep ANYTHING down other ...
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Wednesday thoughts - June30th2o21

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  June 30th 2021 ..  My back has been hurting like crazy lately ,  So I got a couple heating pads and a couple ice pads for it because I'm stubborn and won't take pills for the pain,  Not to self ,  When your younger DONT crack your back just because it "feels good" ,  talk to your Dr about your back hurting and he will recommend what you should do .  If I only did that instead of just cracking it for 20 years straight ...  Ugh !  But that's not the only reason why I have arthritis in my back and neck ,  It's also because after I stopped smoking I be came LAZY !  Something you don't do ,  what I should of done was forced myself just to go around the block or even down the street . Now I'm living with the consequences ! 👎 😟  Just some more thoughts before bed  Catina has been changing the blonde hair on the dolls with the extra hair chalk I bought the other day . Nifty idea if you ask me . She said she wants to custo...
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How do you clean this type of carpet ?

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  I got a carpet a couple months ago and my boyfriends dog is wrecking it .  I shouldn't of got white but I thought it looked neat.   This is what the carpet used to look like  And  My side . It's cleaner then the other side my boyfriends side.  Mind the vaccume because I'm vaccuming and brushing it .  This is what it looks like now.  How do you clean it ?  It's full of dog hair , it's not white anymore . Boyfriend said I can't bleach it because it's harmful for his dog .  Ugh .  Any ideas ?  I really want to use bleach and water it down , maybe it will get his dog not to chew on it ? But I also don't want to hurt the dog . I do have a steam cleaner but i have to try and get the hair out first and it's HARD ! Forty doller carpet down the drain :(  Oh and I still have wax it it also . The heating it up with a blow-dryer smeared it . 🤬
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The day i got ripped off

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 2o22.o8.19 (Friday) -  Click to Read Timmy's Eye Appointment These right here ... I was SO MAD 😠  The only reason why I'm posting about this is because it popped up in my #TimeHop today . I completely forgot about them because I don't know where my kids put them . Payed 20$ each (not including shipping&handling) , if I find the screen shots of them I'll post them . Ugh ! They were suposto be HUGE , NOT tiny . The bubble solution was empty also  (still have them, they kinda work) But not a website I'll trust again to be honest.  The boxes were damaged 😠  Update : (found the screen shots) Sorry it comes with an empty bubble container  But the one I got needed 3 batteries 🔋  Totally not worth the money to be honest  Ugh !
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Alisha's hair part 0ne

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  June 12th 2021 . When I first started knowing her hair was falling out . I thought it was going to the beach the one day with Terry and his family .  But nobody else has what she has. I started looking at older pictures and turns out she had this patch for a little bit before the 12th.  🤔 .  My daughter Alisha is losing her hair.  (I got pictures)  Has been for a month or so now ,  I've googled it and said something about her immune system or she needs to switch shampoo and it even said being around someone who got the covid shot 😟 I've tried giving her gummies for her immune system and she has been going outside more for the sunlight . Nothing has changed her hair is still falling out . So I switched the hair shampoo to kid friendly and scent free . Her hair is still falling out .  Now I don't want to beleive it's because she's around someone who has had the vax so Im making an appointment with her Dr tomarrow .  Just have to say that sh...
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Old pictures 😬

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  Found these gems on my phone when I was adding everything on hard drive .  These are from April 20th 2o2o ,   I beleive Alisha took them . Nelly knew something was wrong and was by my side every day for a month straight .  this was when I was able to walk to the school and back but couldn't go by myself , I was scared that I would fall or pass out randomly .  Its the day after I had to give the hospital back their eco thing ? It measures the heart beat and everything . Had to wear wires for three days . You can tell when you look at the pictures I was not feeling well (but I wasn't sick) I was going back and forth to breathing tests , ultrasounds on my heart and legs , MRIs were getting done .  .. I started to think to myself ,  I wonder if I push myself I'll get better ?  And I did .  I pushed myself because I got tired of just laying in bed all day barley being able to walk to the bathroom without help .  I couldn't even stand l...
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September :)

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💭 😬 Tuesday June 29th 2o21 (thoughts before bed)

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They finally gave Darryl's house more room on my game today :)  I think they should move the stairs tho because I have my tree's in the way and I keep clicking them . But overall I'm REALLY happy about this update with the game 😊 Excited for more room & more decorations for his house !  . 😬 My heart specialist called me today , He wants to see me again tomorrow to see if I'm good or if I still have the inflimation around my heart . It's been almost a year and half because the pandemic . So .. He said I need to come in tomarrow . I'll be happy knowing it's gone or almost gone because then I know I was doing something right for the past year in a half . I personally don't think I'll be able to handle bad news from him again . Bad enough my Dr told me I got blood clots in my legs (that's why I can't really feel them or walk/stand long) , I got arthritis in my back and neck . Plus on top of that I'm asmetic (however its spelt) I should ...
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