A new day !

I've been honestly feeling alot better these past few days . I prolly already said that in my other post but meh ... 

Ive noticed that me and my sister has a good relationship , a relationship that me and my mom should have. But at least I no I can count on her. I never thought me and my sister would be this close, only because I didnt like how she left the house when we lived in the county. But I finally knocked that wall down sence I know I can trust her again.

My councler told me I should re connect with the people I used to and I did :) there awesome to hang around. They haven't met my kids yet tho because I have this trust issue with people. (Because of reasons) not going to make the same mistake twice. Some people do learn from there mistakes and some don't.  Ive learnt that trusting the wrong person could back fire! But also not trusting anyone could make you isolated too. Both of thoes mean alot to me. [If any of that makes sense]

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I'll admit , ive turned back to my happy normal self , took me a bit to find her but ... I'm back :) I'm liking it to be honest. 

I dont have my depression or anxity anymore , but I also don't have the fear of him, I'm going into basments again , witch is a scary spot for me but I did it. ONLY because I choose to let EVERYTHING go and not think about it. 

I know ive prolly said the past is the past a couple times on this blog but I'm saying it again.

The past is the past and its time to let EVERYTHING go! 

I personally don't care if me and my x communicate anymore because I'm not afraid of him like i used to be. I know that he ain't going to hurt me or he cant bring me down anymore. I have a amazing mind set right now and I'm not letting this mind set slip away.